A good blogger I am not....

I haven't written a thing on this blog in over a year. I'm ashamed.

I always have the intention of keeping this updated, but for one reason or another it hasn't happened. This particular blog is actually the third in a short line of failed attempts. I need to keep it up, I know it would be good therapy for me.

This failure at following through with written correspondance is nothing new to me. In fact, I probably have 5 or 6 journals that I have begun through the years and then quit after a month or so. I'm not sure why I have such an issue with following through with my blogging/journaling, but I do. I'm going to work on fixing that. I follow through with everything else, why not this?

Perhaps I feel that my writing is not quite up to par with other blogs I read....ok, there is no perhaps to it, it's not up to par. I should be ok with that, but I'm not. In my elementary school days, I loved writing. I would write essays on things I found interesting all of the time, just because. Even if it wasn't an assignment, I would still write something and turn it in to the teacher. I would always get positive feedback with constructive criticism. Then I transitioned into middle school - I think that was my downfall. From that point forward, with the exception of my 8th grade teacher, Mr. Bryan Sweasy, who had us analyze the words of Bob Dylan and other great songwriters (he was my favorite language arts teacher ever...he went on to marry my favorite algebra teacher, Ms. Yates), I had horrible "teachers" who didn't care for my creative writing, but rather focused on all of the grammatical mistakes I made and therefore considered my work subpar. So, I really just stopped trying and for the remainder of my schooling I squeaked by with the minimum amount of words/pages on all of my essays and truly hated writing assignments.

I guess since this is my blog, I can make as many grammatical errors knowing that I'm not being graded. If someone chooses to correct my errors by leaving a comment, I can just delete those comments and be on my merry way.

If I'm being really honest with myself, there might be 1 person who will happen upon these words of mine and I'd be willing to bet, they aren't all that interested in what I have to say. So, I really shouldn't worry at all.....

Right?