Rough Week...

It has been one very rough week at home, at work, spiritually. My faith has been tested to the fullest the past 5 days and I feel like I'm only making an average grade on it right now. Of course, I'm thinking there would be something even more wrong if I felt like I was at an A+ with my faithfulness, after all, I'm human.

My friend and I were chatting the other night about how it's so difficult to ask for and accept help from others because we've always been the 'strong' one - that is something I am definitely struggling with right now. It's not easy for me to put myself in such a vulnerable position, even with friends. In fact, I think it's probably easier to open up and ask for help from those that don't know me so well, because then I don't have to worry about them thinking, "wow, she really doesn't have it together." Not that my friends would ever say/think that, they would be nothing but supportive.....but then it goes back to being the 'strong' one. It's a vicious cycle that will only be broken with the help of God, I can't wait to be free of these chains I've placed on myself.....

God is good and I know he has such a huge plan for my life. I look forward to finding my 'something more'.